its been a really long time since i have used devianArt, i have like the improvements made since i was last on. I learned alot while I have been at school. I still don't have amazing tallents but my concepts are great. my life has been pretty shitty lately. my old roomate screwed me out of like 8,000 dollars which i will end up paying for the rest of my life. i also have not had any emotional connection with anyone for over 3 years, and its been over 2 years without a physical connection. let me tell you that can take a toll on someone. i have become bitter and have come to hate this world, when i was younger i would just say fuck it and try to end everything. but i have learned that not only does that hurt the few people who do give a shit about me. but i also realized that there is nothing after this life so doing something is better then being worm-food. sometimes i wonder why people talk to each other, i wonder that if we all just stopped believing in reality if it would disappear. I mainly just become bored with life, so i do things like bark at people who walk too close to me. I think I'm going to work more on the second of my poetry trilogy. i finished my brothers birthday present (it is posted) i haven't seen him in almost a year, he moved to Portland, Oregon. but my family and I are leaving Thursday to go visit him, its been the only good thing to the shitty life i have been having. well i got things to do things to watch, Later FUCKERS